kundalini movement

I realize that a lot of people almost get it. Even M. said to "just accept it". The main problem with trauma is that it cause you to reject part of humanity, and in my case, the violent rejection caused me more emotional pain and worse trouble than the trauma. There is something about being engaged in life and the constant pleasure that being engaged brings. This pleasure is disrupted through rejection. Often in my case, rather than focus on being engaged all I did was obsess about the people I rejected. Kundalini is the flow from the base of your spine out the top of your head activated by sensual or engaged energy. This is the healing energy and what gives pleasure to being alive. This is what can heal trauma because it distracts from feelings of rejection to feelings of wholeness or oneness with the universe. I am healing because I am thinking about different things and different people. I have role models in other whole people and I am no longer focusing on my lack, but what I have and what abundance I can achieve.