poetrynw.org

I'm planning on trying to submit some poems to poetrynw. You can submit up to five and so far I have one that I really like. I am interested in attention, basically the fact that so many people in my life want my attention and are happy with only that. Attention is what they want, not money, not depth. I like attention too but I need other stuff. They don't seem to need therapy, or more money, or lots of money, or new information. All they want is attention. They are good people, not into power or even will. Maybe I was that way when I was young but I find it a little naive now.

Writing poetry

I found some great magazines on writing and poetry at the LO library. Today I wrote a couple of poems, one good one on magic. I like writing poetry and find it really helps me express myself. I want to start writing with an erotic touch. I can spend all day writing and reading and drinking coffee. I love St. Honore cafe right here in LO the coffee is just as good as the cafe creme in Paris. Finally a hobby that is not too expensive and I really enjoy. I also want to work the exercises of St Ignatius at some point. They are magical too. (m)

Camelot

I'm listening to Camelot from the library. I'm not into Daddy and Candy. I suspect Solly was up to no good. I'm beginning to really think that neurosis is a moral problem. Anyway I remember the music and I'm reading Writer's Digest from the library too. The music I can't listen to is Stardust. I remember liking it and I remember sex with MR and JC. Pathological? No Neurotic? Yes. Neurotic to the point of becoming predatory? Yes. Victims of neurotic suffering. I have a little compassion. These neurotics tried to ruin my life. The quest to return to sexy model, adorable moppet, movie star. I'm trying to move on.

Cold blues

Stuck at home with a cold. Later a class with Jay. I found a good website plato.stanford.edu good for philosophy. Played with feminist theory. I am not convinced although it is appealing. I think psychoanalysis with an emphasis on the parental mother or father or both complex is more interesting and useful. The problem is not everyone wants to do or can do psychoanalysis. Music is interesting too. I've been listening to the NY times music podcast. Its good. I like Rhianna. The blues are boring. I don't think all those music people are really into music. I prefer psychoanalytic work to the violence in the various armies. Basically I leave the armies alone. They might be good artists but I'm not really impressed.